Vios @violetSpark@beach.city

unknowable eldritch entity with adorable femboy vibes

I've been occasionally messaging them and they haven't been responding all day. Clearly, they're just too tired or legitimately too busy to respond.

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Or maybe they hate me; I should send another message to apologize.

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Don't be so needy; it's not like you actively need the attention right now. They'll get in contact with you when they're ready.

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But what if they don't though 😭

I am BAD at staying in contact with people. It absolutely boils down to “I need something that I know THEY’RE interested in talking about AND is big enough to warrant a ‘hey, significant update message’”

Deities forbid I start a year long hiatus with “I found a half eaten donut on the ground” to a professional patisserie. I HAVE TO BE INTERESTING DAMMIT!!!!

I hate so much that I find out about some stupid ass youtube drama and I'm super into knowing the details, despite not actively following the participants before this.

Emotional/relationship conflict of other people gives me strength. I mean, it's absolutely none of my business and I won't go prying into people's private affairs.......but also 👀🍿

CPU cooler replaced. Blissful silence. Except some of the rainbows won't come on anymore. That's a tomorrow Vios problem.

Me: -sees that someone has been working for this company for 23 years- oh wow, that's almost as long as I've been alive

Also me: ...wat???...you're 30+!!!!!

Me: ........plz no?

Also remembering that the last time I did this, I started to really fem up my outfit options and...due to other things going on, my mental health declined as a result. I wasn't able to "dress as myself" during the week and had to deal with the intense pressure to "be a lady" 8 hours of the day.

Gotta be careful to not repeat that spiral 🙃

I'm trying to go into work once a week and.....my wardrobe barely allows that. Thanks to working on the West coast for so long, I have plenty of work appropriate tshirts; maybe one or two shirts that are Acceptable East Coast Office Wear.

Guess part of my paycheck is going to updating my wardrobe a bit.....but I'll be damned if I let it be boring

Managed to drink 40oz of just water today. Success!!

My new cpu cooler came in but I just can't be bothered to replace it tonight. Such happiness and sadness

Hope folks are having an okay Monday night

A few that I like that I wanna try to redo. There's also a landscape that I can't find right now.....

Also some of my old oil paintings. I should get back into that so I can hang something I'm proud of up

Going through my box of artwork and prints and I'm finding a lot of stuff that marked my time with an ex. Not attached to it so I'm throwing it out. But now I get to go searching for stuff to go in the now-empty frames :D

I landed on pizza. Yay!

Six hours, including breaks to build this Ikea furniture by myself. I hurt. Literally, painfully proud of myself.

Now to figure out dinner.......ugh more thinking

If you put too much salt in your butter chicken, you can add a bit of sugar to balance out the taste, apparently.

Woke up on the couch. Starting the morning strong!

Oh man, I've been playing this Switch game for a few hours. I should take a break.

-pulls out phone to play a different game-

Aaaahhhh!!!

Galaxy bath bomb had a rocket inside. I had fun "flying" it through the space bath.