Pel ☘️ @pexl@beach.city

I’m Pel, and I’m a trans, genderless, soft-hearted geek in Texas. I’m bisexual, VERYromantic, 24, and polyamorous. I represent myself online as a fluffy white ferret.

I write UI code for a living. I love to draw cartoon animals and to discuss furries and fandom in a meta way. I own ~30 tamagotchis. I am passionate about robots and virtual pets of many kinds, including neopets and pokemon!

Talks about relationships, lewd, mental health, gender, weed, and alcohol.

(for my profile! Hello!)

If you have a used Apple product compatible with the Pencil that you want to sell please let me know ; - ;

A sweet summertime Pel by beelzbat on twitter (old but relevant piece)!

Literally I wouldn't be able to make drawings, probably, if the necessary aids for my shaky hands and general low 'visual intelligence' (i guess?) weren't accessible to me. Despite drawing constantly as a kid I have always been waaayy behind the curve for people with the same amount of practice as me... I would have eventually given up. I'm very grateful.

I'm realizing lately that I have a very hard time visualizing things in my mind. That's why my art style has always been wildly inconsistent - the image in my head doesn't really hold still, i have to feel it out and then look at it and decide what needs to change after I have physically seen it. which is why i didn't make any real improvement in my art until i had access to a digital tablet: the undo button and ability to move things around was literally necessary for me. thank you technology

very close to declaring my fursona's species as a leucistic pine marten and changing almost nothing about their design really ! just because it would feel better about their tail. ferrets really don't have long enough tails.

i feel sweaty and upset for no reason today :( well, not really NO reason, there are reasons but they're all kind of stupid and not even related to me. i'm just generally upset about how terrible people act towards each other, even people who are basically on the same side...i wish i had something to be so passionate about that i don't even have the energy care about how mean people are to each other any more

It would make a huge effect on my art output if I owned an iPad and Apple Pencil. It seems like the absolute cheapest way for me to acquire these two things will still cost me around $300 TT_TT I hope I can feel satisfied with the art I feel like I owe people soon. I could open commissions then and try to actually do this. I might start a kickstarter campaign or something so backers can get a reward if I get there...

I regularly consider making a neopets themed Mastodon instance

It’s really confusing to me and it makes me wonder if there’s something about my personality or gender expression that makes people log me as small in their memory banks

So, the reason I am crammed into that little wagon is because A coworker declared that I would be the only person in the office small enough to fit inside of it. I, of course, jumped to test this theory, but internally I resented this a little bit. I am 5 foot 10 and I haven’t weighed myself recently but I probably weigh close to 160 pounds. I am not tiny; I am like, almost exactly average size for a human, but people refer to me like I am a teeny weenie little bitty string bean.

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The idea that women look inherently different from men is violence. Women have narrow, sometimes inverted hips. Women have luxuriously hairy chests. Women have heavy brows. Women have big tummies with no curve. Women have beards, mustaches, unibrows. CIS WOMEN ESPECIALLY HAVE ALL OF THESE FEATURES.

If you're a trans person, and you are worried that your body type isn't right or that you don't look like the cis people of your gender, remember:
We have all been lied to about what humans look like. We've all had the diversity of our species contorted and hidden away from us. We are all, cis and trans alike, forced to reconcile our own appearances with these lies. There are cis people who look just like you, who have the same insecurities about their appearances that you do, I promise.

Hi, I’m drunk, I’m here to tell you I open this website to say things about 10 times as often as I actually say them

It becomes really clear to me when I’m drunk how much my dysphoria is social rather than physical. I become goofy and teasy in private spaces with my body, jiggling the good jiggly parts because I know it’s funny and sexy; I know it’s a nice body, and I don’t hate it in a shame-free social vacuum. I wouldn’t want to change it if society were more reasonable

My office just changed locations, so I get a fresh desk to set up my office hoard.