Janine 🌺 @flaplette@beach.city

still awake, hungry but queasy, head is heavy from fatigue but i can't settle

counting down the hours til i find out whether i click "send" on my resignation

not "okay" but safe and stable, idk when i'll be able to sleep

hey. 💜

yesterday was incredibly rough on Orchid to the point where she needs a break, so I'm back

i want to be able to think and create again..

woam implies the existence of krab

bought an incense holder so Sapphy can have hers back.

it has a kitten sleeping on a crescent moon. felt appropriate.

Sapphy decorated a stone and i picked a moonflower from the fence. rest in peace, dear.

we took a different route home from lunch and found a dead kitten lying on the side of the road..

i couldn't leave them there, Sapphy carried our leftovers while i carried them home. we're going to bury them in the backyard.

trying to write a resignation letter while ugly crying

if i stay it'll be a constant cycle of having to check in and provide documentation to stay on unpaid, unprotected medical leave, plus i'll have to pay my insurance and benefit premiums out of pocket.

i can't. it's too much. it's not worth my life.

i've come to the difficult decision that i need to resign

i can't keep trying to hold on to this job while unpaid AND trying to get help.

i don't really have any viable options other than to quit, rely on my parents' generosity, and apply for medicaid.

am doing.. okay, today

good, maybe

Janine is back, as is Dawn

i'm a catellite, mow 💚

overall though today can fuck off. i'm so tired of trauma ruling my emotions.

talked with my mom for an hour and a half. told her i probably have to quit my job. thankfully they're being very generous still.

explained a bit about my plurality and why i'm smoking so much.. i'm impressed that she didn't argue or express shock/disappointment for once and actually listened

among us is honestly the perfect game for leftists, we certainly do love witch hunts and throwing each other under the bus in the name of "doing something"

we're home safe 🤍💜💚🧡💙