it applies extra weight on my right leg, causing pressure on my sciatic nerve, which leads to headaches like this one
standing helps a lot, but if sitting wasn't basically just aggravating that nerve it'd be all more balanced
these are all very reasonable reasons to consider losing weight or at least improving the strength of the muscles involved
much better than "I'm fat and no one will ever live me" that was the reigning reason before transition
this is a great example of how transition didn't fix some problems, but the ability to distance myself from self loathing it brought helped me better see and place those problems.
depression and the like are like unhelpful doctors who've decided their diagnosis in advance
why do I have such trouble getting work done?
"because you're a terrible person and you can't fix it and you shouldn't bother"
are you sure it's not something else?
"only a terrible person like yourself would ask that"
laid bare like that, it sounds ridiculous and like you should be able to go "fuck off", but as anyone who has dealt with these issues can tell you, it's not that easy. if it was just a case of will, we'd have done it already
consider this a reminder to take your meds and practice some self compassion
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