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Hi, I am Zen. A bisexual polyamorous Jedi Knight.

I like to write, code, and build electronic gadgets. Avid roleplayer either tabletop or in the virtual world of Second Life.

Both mentally ill (Bipolar I) and chronically ill (Dermatomyositis with Interstitial Lung Disease) and while people may think I should not let my illnesses define me, they impact every moment of my life and are not easily dismissed. This is my lived reality.

Constantly evolving.

Got told I love you by three different people in the span of an hour. I feel great.

Some of you did not watch Mr. Rogers growing up and it shows.

For those of you who did not here is a message I hope you take to heart:
You can be liked and loved, just as you are.

Steven Universe movie 

Yesterday was pretty amazing. I am a bit overwhelmed and tired so bullet points.

* Had a first date with @Weirdodragoncat

* Held a baby briefly

* Attended the Samhain Devotional to the Morrigan hosted by Coru Cathubodua Priesthood - A Polytheist Priesthood of the Morrigan

That last is going to take a while for me to process. I met a lot of cool people and participated in something deeply moving and meaningful to me.

Pretty excited about tomorrow. In the afternoon will have a first date with @Weirdodragoncat and then after the date I am off to Oakland for a Samhain Devotional to The Morrigan.

I have a friend that likes to draw, so I asked if I could commision them to draw my D&D character Kylan the Bard. They said it was only their second commission ever and wanted to only charge me $5 I told her that I would pay her $15 for the commission and give her a $5 tip.

Kylan Lutestring is holding a Lute on which is written "This Machine Kills Tyrants"

I have realized that the prevailing emotional currents in my life right now, and for several years are grief and love. In fact, sometimes it is hard to know where the grief ends and the love begins. You know, I am not convinced they are actually different emotions.

Do you ever listen to an artist's first album and wonder what their day jobs were at the time?

Tomorrow PG&E will be turning off the electricity in 30 counties affecting 800,000 customers. They say it is because of conditions of extreme fire risk. But I think we all know the real reason.

Neo has to get to the source.

Depressive thoughts 


A couple weeks ago I learned how to use a laser cutter at my local , MotherLode MakerLabs. After a move of location it took a long while to set up the ventilation system for it. It needed testing so I made some small medallions with the Harper symbol from For the first test of the ventilation system (and my design skills) we used artboard at very low power, and once we knew we had a good design did it on wood. Now I am thinking of projects that use a laser cutter!

I admit I got chills when I saw this, and when it was done, tears. 50 years since the release of this song and the album Abbey Road.

I think kindles and other e-readers should be called "books of holding"

Steven Universe Movie Soundtrack Observations with spoilers 

Drugs, Steven Universe 

Kids always seem to think they invented the same vices their parents used to enjoy.

D&D nerds would take over the world only if we could all schedule for the same weekend, so therefore the world is safe.

I loved Johnny & Santo's "Sleepwalk" for decades before learning who it was by and what it was called. Because it has no lyrics, and the tune is impossible to hum. Because I did not know who made it or what it was called I just had to enjoy it when I randomly encountered it. Now I can listen to it anytime I want on my music application. Also, guess what I am listening to right now?

So I feel a little guilty for having a roll of banned lead-based solder. Do I use it when I need to solder electronics? You bet I do.

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